Uhhhhh I ate WAY too much for dinner tonight...my stomach is killing me now!

Nothing much to report here except for the purchase of my tanning bed which still needs to get hooked up by Derek (he said something about volts or something)  I will be mightly happy when that is done.

This weekend is the horse world expo and I also need to find time to go see Cash in New Jersey also...I need to get the ball rolling on setting that up. I have to admit that its been kinda nice not having a horse in these freezing tempatures although I do miss my horse and can't wait to ride again.

We've had some nasty sleety/rain the past couple of days here. Everything is a mud hole or soaking wet.

Last night Derek and I had to brave the storm and go out in the yuck in order to have his B-Day dinner at Outback. I don't take to the cold very well so had to bundle up really well in order to not freeze my tush off.

This past weekend I went to the farm that introduced me to horses and morgans. The owners have decided to leave since they are elderly and having a hard time maintaining the place. Sometimes I sit and wonder what my life would be like if I hadn't gotten involved with the horses...I'm sure I'd be much richer moneywise but I can't think of anything else that would be so important to me.  It's sad to think that all those memories will be gone, although I guess memories never really leave us but I have to wonder how much longer the barns and fences will stay up until someone knocks them down completely removing the place that changed my life.

The title of this blogs come from the fact that I got called to the barn last night at 8:30 and had just gotten out of the shower so my hair was soaking wet and i swear it even froze up a little   I'm beyond exhusted this morning and can not wait to "sleep in" untill 7:00 tomorrow morning....some sleeping in that will be!

Derek was talking about possibly refinancing the house last night which would end up saving us around $500/month.....oh how nice that would be!   I just hope he goes through with it.

At this point we are still waiting for the Nelson stall waterers to arrive before we can start installing them so that project is on hold.

I feel pulled every which way right now. I need to go this way but they want me to go that way this person wants me up this person wants me down, I need to just take care of myself and let people understand that they need to take care of their own responsibilities....so hard to do without looking like the bad guy though.

 

 

 

Derek finally came home after a week of visiting with family and friends in MI. Of course, being that I needed to prove that I'm not crazy, I took down the sheet that I had covering the window that Sake had barked out of two nights in a row while I was alone in the house.....and nothing....not even one peep the past two nights....stupid dog.

 

No other real big news here. The trim in the sunroom still isn't done and I'm on Derek's ass about it, crossing my fingers that it gets completed this week.

I have taken up cooking ....I need to be more healthy and get into the habbit of not eating too much crap. 

Still waiting on the field waterers to arrive...they should be here today or tomorrow...YAY

Sometimes I wonder why people go around looking for shit and reading deeply into things just to start a fight????  I just wish everyone could get along and support one another again.

 

On a lighter note....Derek is out of town this week visiting his family which means I have the house all to myself.   Sake has been making it a point to try and scare the shit out of me at 3 am by barking and growling out the window like someone is out there. Last night I hung a sheet so that he couldn't look out and it seemed to do the trick. I don't understand why that dog only acts like that when Derek is out of town...I swear Derek must think I'm a nut case because I always call him upset about how the dog is acting and yet he never gets to see it for himself.

 

Here is Derek and I at my good friend Angie's wedding....it was a BLAST!

 

As normal things have been crazy busy at the barn.  Every stall is filled (yes even the shedrow barn) which means we have 10 boarders and lots of work to do. Now that we are getting into freezing temps at night Derek and I came to the conclusion that we need automatic waterers to make our life easier (YIPEEE)  So the order has been placed for engery free outdoor waterers to be placed in every field (except the tiny one) and the main barn will have the top of the line Nelson waterers with heaters.  Its going to be a pain in the ass to get them installed but SOOO worth it once its done.  This place is going to be AWESOME by the time we are done with it.

I'm having great rides on Cash and looking forward to the 09 show season more and more.

Construction on my sunroom is still not complete...I  believe we are going on 3 weeks at this point. The walls were primed and painted a lovely shade of light yellow and my bench has been sitting in my living room for about 2 weeks.  Derek decided that he was going to lay a new floor and purchased the "easy to snap together" type floor and let me tell you....It an't easy!   At one point he got so pissed that he ran out the door and threw a section off the back of the deck.....and about 10 mins later he quietly walked past me to go get it when he realized he was going to need it....dumb ass!

 

 

It's been raining like mad here all day which means no riding for me tonight and more then likely I will get mud kicked up into my face while bringing the horses in.....its just GREAT to be me.....seriously though, I HATE taking care of the horses in the rain, they never want to coroperate and its always a hassle.....does someone want to come change lives with me for the night?

Since there will be no outdoor activites tonight I have a list of songs that I need to download to my iPod.....the selection of songs on there right now is really lame and I need to get it more personalized.

I feel like I'm falling behind in my life....its just a bad sense of failure that is looming over me today. Perhaps I can blame it on the weather but a part of me thinks that I'm finally waking up and seeing my life for what it is.

5 months until horse show season starts back up.......

My house is still  a construction zone...I hate it. Work has come to a halt once again due to some drywall issue...its enough to make me want to rip my hair out.

I still have not found a bucket for the luggable loo that is going into my horse trailer this show season....must get on that.

Couple of things need to get pictures taken and be put on ebay so I can make some money.

I really started to miss Headlight this weekend. I had Cash turned out in the field and he was standing in the corner and at first glance he looked just like Headlight used to.  I was just skimming through Headlight's training journal looking for a picture and had to stop at the head on shot that is a personal fav. of mine. I hope everything is great where he is and that he is enjoying life.....miss you buddy.

I hate election day.....all people want to talk about is politcs and then they want to know who you voted for...of course when its not the same person as them they get huffy   I don't think I will vote today....I'm still registered under my parents address so I would have to travel to Waldorf to vote and its just not worth all that to me...I'm a horrible young "generationer"

 

In much more exciting news, I purchased this the other day and I'm waiting for it to arrive at my house :

However, being that I am cheap and didn't want to pay the shipping cost for the whole uniti, I only purchased the seat of the lugable loo.....thus leaving me the problem of not having a suitable bucket.

Last night Derek dragged me to Lowes and while he was off looking at tile flooring I was taking care of more important items....picking out the perfect bucket for my "loo". I found myself eyeballing the white contractor type buckets only to realize that they make more models of buckets then I had previously thought. So what did I do you ask?  Well I did what any NORMAL  excited lugable loo owner would do.....I took down a variety of buckets and set them on the floor and proceeded to squat next to them to determine the perfect height......ask yourself...wouldn't you have done the same?

 

 

Since it was a cold, wet, rainy and gloomy day I packed up my summer clothes and put my winter clothes in my drawers    I hate that summer is gone, I hate that horse shows are gone, I hate that I won't see my horse show friends for 6 months....I hate everything

I am still holding out that maybe I will get to use the training I purchased a year ago for Cash although it doesn't look too promising....I keep getting the "maybe next month" emails back. shitty.

Winter really makes me depressed, I havn't seen the sun in days and it was spitting cold rain on me last night while I took care of 13 horses. Blankets are a pain to take on and off especially when you have a nasty horse trying to kick at you.

Is it spring yet?

Why is it that I always seem to look forward to the wrong things?  I find myself already wanting to plan next year's show season and figure out how many days off I will need, how I am going to arrange my horse trailer, what items I still need to buy for my trailer, hopefull that Cash won't require a lot of working "down" or days to get adjusted to new places, etc.

I guess I should be thinking about decorating my house or finding a better job....I'm just not programed that way though

Sometimes things happen in life and you just have to suck it up and keep on trucking. I'm not letting it get to me and ruin my plans like I normally would. I can be cold as stone and not give a shit so that's what I'm doing. My focus is already on next year and what I can get accomplished. Horse-wise things are looking good and that's all I really care about.

I woke up this morning with a sore throat and all stuffed up....I wish I could have called out sick but due to the fact that I have no contract in place (yes it seems I'm working for free) and that I just got back from Nationals, I came in and will drag myself around all day.

On Saturday I went shopping with my sister and after almost getting jumped in the dollar store (ask my sister for the story) we went to my parents house to give my mom her presents.

Sunday, Ashley and I worked on Bean and Cash's tails and gossiped for 2 hours...good times.

 

Nothing else to report so I think I might try to sleep sitting up and staring at my computer.

Things on my end have been very busy, crazy, sad, happy and every other word you can imagine.

Nationals was super fun, although it was sad to say goodbye to Headlight. The excitement of a new prospect has helped keep my attention focused and I have big plans for next year already!

Off to start a new training journal.....

Headlight is sold pending a vet check. I feel like my life just hit a stand still, I won't know what to do without him in my life. I LOVE that stupid horse. Wow just WOW.

Tomorrow is the start of my first vacation in lord knows how long. Carla is spending the night at my house and we are leaving at 6:00 and meeting up with Mandy and my parents on the road.  It will be a nice change to the normal BS I put up with on a daily basis.

In other not very exciting news....I was made a resonable offer to settle my lawsuit last night (I just love how the asses have dragged it out 4 years and then a week before they finally start to cave). I had my laywer make a counter offer for good measure and kinda as a last "screw you" gesture. Its nice to think that this might finally be over with and I can put the past in the past.

Vacation planning is in full swing....there are a ton of things that need to get done before I leave and last min arrangements made.

The cats are going to fend for themselves while we are gone (I'm locking them in the house with an auto waterer & feeder...tough life I know)

The dogs will be left at my mom's house and taken care of by a girl....hopefully all goes well.

Carla is going to spend the night at my house Friday night so Sat. morning we can head out early.

The horses are being cared for by a boarder so I have to get sawdust and hay set up for them.

This morning as I made my way to my car I noticed a huge pile of rabbit shit on my cement walkway.....its almost like the rabbit was hopping along and then   "OMG I have to shit!" and just unloaded himself on my path. WTF "Mr.Jack Rabbit" couldn't you have jumped another 10 inches and let loose in my grass?   I understand when you gotta go, you gotta go (Derek could tell many stories of me running in from the barn with my cheeks clenched) but bloody hell the barn is a good 100 feet from the house and I make it to the bathroom....I feel like if you had made the effort you could have made the 10 inches. I hope one of my cats gets you.

I stole the title from the song currently playing on my computer radio.....its a good song! Look it up:

Sorry        artist: Blackcherry ....this is the same band who sings Crazy Bitch which any bargoer is a fan of....if you don't like the song YOU SUCK

Today has been an interesting work day. My boss needed me to drop off some stuff at the Radio Shack in Laplata so I grabbed lunch and ate with my boys (the dogs) while watching an episode of John & Kate plus 8. If you havn't seen it your in luck and I reccomend that you quickly change the channel if you ever see it on your or a friends television. The show is about a couple who has eight kids (set of twins and sextuplets) there is screaming, poo, biting, smacking and more screaming the whole show.....its like watching a train wreck. I enjoy it when the husband tells his wife to take the stick out of her ass LOL

Again the show sucks.....I guess this is what stay at home mom's watch to make "lil Johnny" not seem so bad.

 

 

 

Ha....betcha never thought you would see that on my blog     Well horses sucked this morning because as I was leaving the house and heading to work I noticed that there were 5 horses in the mares pasture and we only have three mares on the property. That's when I saw the gates had been busted opened and the horses were all mixed together.....guess they didn't like their single sex boarding school like pastures    I made a sad attempt to bring in most of the horses before I headed to work.

Due to the fact that my dogs think its cute to jump in bed with me now and bite each other, I have gotten very little sleep the past couple of days...stinkin mutts.

Yesterday I was good on my diet. My daily meal diary is as followed:

9:00- pop tart (shut up I know its not low carb)

11:00- String Cheese

12:30- Tuna fish & Jello

3:00- Peanuts

8:00- Bacon wrapped steak

I drank crystal light, diet Dr. Pepper  and water ....plus I ran a mile. Must drop weight.

There is nothing good on tv right now...ugh!

The wire to the run-in shed has been burried so now we have to get it wired up.  I'm going to have a ton of advertising to do to get that sucker filled after all this time and money we are investing.

I seem to have a lot to write about lately....odd I know!

After finally seeing the Sex and the City movie, Derek and I had a discussion about our wedding (oh yeah that's right we do need to still have a wedding!).  We came to the conclusion that if we can get and keep the barn & row shed stalls filled then we will spend around $8K on our wedding. As we drove past the new boardwalk by the Woodrow Wilson bridge I asked if he would like to get married there and he thought it seemed like a good idea so the plan is to go walk around and check it out the next time we are bored.  I'm not really pressed on the whole wedding idea right now....I just don't see a need to rush and do something that I'm not happy with....plus Ashley and Mandy are getting married in the next 10 months and I can only handle so much wedding at a time.

I'm suppose to ask my boss about taking vacation time off today....UGH I hate doing that